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betrayal [bI'treIql], sloth [slqVT], prejudice ['preGVdIs]
She shot very well this good, this rich bitch, this kindly care-taker and destroyer of his talent. Nonsense. He had destroyed his talent himself. Why should he blame this woman because she kept him well? He had destroyed his talent by not using it, by betrayals of himself and what he believed in, by drinking so much that he blunted the edge of his perceptions, by laziness, by sloth, and by snobbery, by pride and by prejudice, by hook and by crook. What was this? A catalogue of old books? What was his talent anyway? It was a talent all right but instead of using it, he had traded on it. It was never what he had done, but always what he could do. And he had chosen to make his living with something else instead of a pen or a pencil.
It was strange, too, wasn't it (и ведь странно = это неспроста, — правда?), that when he fell in love with another woman (что, когда он влюблялся в другую = новую женщину; to fall in love), that woman should always have more money than the last one (у этой женщины всегда было: «/непременно/ должно было быть» больше денег, чем у предыдущей: «последней»)? But when he no longer was in love (но когда он уже не был влюблен), when he was only lying (когда он только лгал), as to this woman, now (как теперь /вот/ этой женщине), who had the most money of all (у которой денег было больше всего), who had all the money there was (у которой их было без счета: «которая имела все деньги, какие /только/ есть»), who had had a husband and children (у которой /когда-то/ были муж и дети), who had taken lovers (которая /и раньше/ заводила: «брала» любовников) and been dissatisfied with them (и разочаровывалась в них; dissatisfied — недовольный, раздосадованный; to satisfy — удовлетворять; радовать), and who loved him dearly (и которая нежно любила его) as a writer, as a man, as a companion (как писателя, как мужчину, как товарища) and as a proud possession (и как драгоценную собственность; proud — гордый; вызывающий чувство гордости); it was strange (было странно = не странно ли) that when he did not love her at all (что, когда он ее /уже/ совсем не любил) and was lying (и /только/ лгал), that he should be able to give her more for her money (он мог давать ей больше за ее деньги) when he had really loved (чем когда действительно любил).
dissatisfied [dIs'sxtIsfaId], companion [kqm'pxnIqn], possession [pq'zeS(q)n]
It was strange, too, wasn't it, that when he fell in love with another woman, that woman should always have more money than the last one? But when he no longer was in love, when he was only lying, as to this woman, now, who had the most money of all, who had all the money there was, who had had a husband and children, who had taken lovers and been dissatisfied with them, and who loved him dearly as a writer, as a man, as a companion and as a proud possession; it was strange that when he did not love her at all and was lying, that he should be able to give her more for her money when he had really loved.