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| "I want him to stay in today." | - Я хочу, чтобы он посидел дома. |
| But he wouldn't do it. | А он отказывался: |
| "I'm all right," he said, going on. | "Я здоров", - и шел с нами. |
| But he wasn't all right. | Но он не был здоров. |
| Anybody could see it. | Это все видели. |
| He was losing flesh, and I have seen him go to sleep chopping; watched the hoe going slower and slower up and down, with less and less of an arc, until it stopped and he leaning on it motionless in the hot shimmer of the sun. | Он худел, и я замечал, что он засыпает с мотыгой; видел, как мотыга движется все тише и тише, поднимается все ниже и ниже, а потом совсем замрет, и он, опершись на нее, тоже застынет в жарком мареве. |
| Ma wanted to get the doctor, but pa didn't want to spend the money without it was needful, and Jewel did seem all right except for his thinness and his way of dropping off to sleep at any moment. | Мама хотела позвать доктора, но папа не хотел понапрасну тратить деньги, а Джул в самом деле был на вид здоров - если не считать худобы и того, что засыпал на каждом шагу. |
| He ate hearty enough, except for his way of going to sleep in his plate, with a piece of bread halfway to his mouth and his jaws still chewing. | Ел он хорошо - только мог заснуть над тарелкой, не донеся хлеб до рта, и дожевывал во сне. |
| But he swore he was all right. | Божился, что здоров. |
| It was ma that got Dewey Dell to do his milking, paid her somehow, and the other jobs around the house that Jewel had been doing before supper she found some way for Dewey Dell and Vardaman to do them. | Доить за него мама пристроила Дюи Дэлл, -как-то платила ей, - и домашнюю работу, которую он делал до ужина, тоже переложила на Дюи Дэлл и Вардамана. |
| And doing them herself when pa wasn't there. | А когда не было папы, делала сама. |
| She would fix him special things to eat and hide them for him. | Она готовила ему особую еду и прятала для него. |
| And that may have been when I first found it out, that Addie Bundren should be hiding anything she did, who had tried to teach us that deceit was such that, in a world where it was, nothing else could be very bad or very important, not even poverty. | Так я узнал, что Адди Бандрен может таиться, а ведь она нас всегда учила: обман это такая штука, что там, где он завелся, ничто уже не покажется чересчур плохим или чересчур важным - даже бедность. |
| And at times when I went in to go to bed she would be sitting in the dark by Jewel where he was asleep. | Случалось, когда я приходил спать, она сидела в темноте возле спавшего Джула. |
| And I knew that she was hating herself for that deceit and hating Jewel because she had to love him so that she had to act the deceit. |